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[attorneyatlol]

I don't seem to use this journal for much more than getting a hold of other people or complaining about viruses anymore, but a conversation got me thinking about what it means to be positive. I know, it's a trite subject, right? 'The power of positive thinking'. It makes me think of a self-help seminar... But to be perfectly honest, I'm not sure I'd ever accomplish anything if I wasn't sure I would accomplish it. I don't know how or why I developed that mindset or if it was even a conscious decision, but I'm grateful that I have. I can't imagine what would have happened if I'd given up on certain goals...

Don't get me wrong. It's not always easy, and nobody can be positive all the time, but I think it beats the alternative in a lot of cases.

I guess this is why some people have me labeled as an optimist.

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[attorneyatlol]

...No. I wouldn't blame them. You're right.

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[samuraiprosecutor]

(Perhaps you should. Cowardice is also cowardice, regardless of the motivations behind it.)

(Damn this place. I don't know whether to be frustrated or relieved that your thoughts aren't open to me. If I didn't tr- know that you have enough sense not to pity me...)

I generally am.

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[attorneyatlol]

And ignorance is ignorance, regardless of the motivations behind it.

...I really can be naive sometimes, huh?

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[samuraiprosecutor]

Wright...

(I fear the day when you can't be any longer. Please, God, don't let me be the one to bring it about.)

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[attorneyatlol]

What...?

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[samuraiprosecutor]

(Damn.)

Your optimism has allowed you to achieve things others couldn't. Even I have seen enough to acknowledge that. I simply (...) hope my adamant insistence on realism doesn't encourage you to discard the viewpoint you've been so successful with.

(...Dear God. Miles Edgeworth, you are a fool.)

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[attorneyatlol]

Edgeworth... You're one of the reasons I am the way I am. Optimist, pragmatist, whatever it is, I wouldn't be who I am today if it weren't for you.

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[samuraiprosecutor]

What?

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[attorneyatlol]

The things you used to tell me when we were kids... I know it seemed like I wasn't listening sometimes, but a few things managed to sink in. I believed in those words. I still believe in them, and that's why... I mean, I know it sounds stupid, but I can't let them go.

I'm not so naive that I don't know what it's like to have the odds stacked against me, Edgeworth, or so fortunate that I've never been in a situation where I was afraid everything would fall apart (or even in a situation where everything did fall apart), but when I remember the things you said, I feel like it'll be okay. I know that, whatever happens, as long as I keep pushing toward that goal and still have the support of the people around me, I'll be able to accomplish what I need to.

It's not that I expect the best possible outcome. It's that I'll keep fighting until I get it.

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[samuraiprosecutor]

(You can't be)

(For so many years? Through so many trials?)

Wright... (Oh God, Wright...)

If...my words inspired anything, it was because they weren't my own.

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[attorneyatlol]

But you believed them, too. And... I don't think I would have listened if they were coming from anybody else.

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[samuraiprosecutor]

(You're a fool, Wright. An unmitigated, unrepentant fool. Without you I'd)

Then even when we were children, you gave me more faith than I'd earned. I suppose it's reassuring to know that isn't a recent development, at least.

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[attorneyatlol]

Neither is me being a fool, I guess.

You did a lot for me, Edgeworth. I know it didn't seem like a big deal at the time... but you did a lot for me.

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[samuraiprosecutor]

That fact I was already aware of.

(Not enough. Not nearly enough, and likely it never will be. Still, it's...something.)

...Perhaps, though the bulk of the credit belongs elsewhere. As I said, the words weren't mine.

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[attorneyatlol]

The feelings behind them were, though.

...Don't think like that, alright? It was enough for me, and that's all that matters.

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[samuraiprosecutor]

...It is.

(No. What you expect in recompense and what you deserve are vastly different measures.)

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[attorneyatlol]

Edgeworth...

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[samuraiprosecutor]

What, Wright?

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[attorneyatlol]

Nothing... Never mind.

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[samuraiprosecutor]

(Don't.)

You went to great lengths to repay me, Wright.

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[attorneyatlol]

I didn't do it so you would owe me, okay?

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[samuraiprosecutor]

(Do you honestly believe I could suspect that you did?) Then why, Wright? Tell me why you did it.

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[attorneyatlol]

We've had this conversation before...

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[samuraiprosecutor]

(We... Ah.)

Indeed we have. But, if I recall correctly, that question wasn't a part of it.

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[attorneyatlol]

You know why I did it.